Love Sick (Part. 3) [The Break-Up Edition]

People fall in love every day, whether its love at first sight or it’s that long lasting crush you have always had on a person. That moment of complete silence when they say “Hello” or ask you for something, that moment of fighting with yourself for acting stupid to someone who clearly has this kind of hook onto you and you always think of having a relationship with.

Dating a person and then comes that pure bliss, whereby you are just madly in love with this person and no matter what people say you don’t care because you are finally happy and you got what you have always hoped for. You have those great moments where you start at the “Know Each Other” Stage, you truly find out what this person is all about and what are the things that you might have in common with them and when you do completely unbelievable, what funny is that you never get to fully understand the person until that moment where by you learn something new about them and every time you learn something new it’s just another reason that makes you fall for them even more.

Then we have that stage whereby you are completely “Love Struck”. You have sleepless nights because you just rushing for the next day so you can spend it with them. You spend most of your time smiling with your phone because you can already see their face when you are reading the text. The moment whereby if they blow you a kiss over the phone you can somehow feel it as if they are with you in spirit and they actually did kiss you.

Then we start getting to that “Insecure\ Drift Away” stage. This is where by you start fighting and it just tears you apart. You still want to be with them but what they doing to you is just too painful for the soul to bear but the heart is an extraordinary organ, even thou its torn apart through the broken pieces you search for that one that is whole and you forgive them because they promised “They won’t do it again”. So you forgive them and things are great between you two but it is not like before because there’s still that part of you that hates them. Until this moment, I had not realized that someone could break your heart twice, along the very same fault lines.

And then we have that painful stage of the road “Separate/ Break –Up” phase. When it comes to this part of the road things go from being sweet to sour. If a person is to sneeze near you, you hate it, you just hate everything about them. This where you go pillow talking with the sheets and you just lie there and no matter how hard you try the tears just come out and you just can’t help it. You go through conversations trying to see what went wrong with you guys but nothing just adds up all that you are doing is just hurting yourself. Lips that taste of tears, they say are the best for kissing, I guess that is why we find comfort in fooling around after a break up before we find that ONE. There are things that we don’t want to happen but have to accept, things we don’t want to know but have to learn, and people we can” live without but have to let go.
They say that if you love someone you should let them go, but they never say what to do when they don’t come back.

We all know the phases by now, let’s talk of the aftermath.

See some people will just have you thinking that they really never had that love for you, get you thinking that they never really loved you the way that you love them. Like they were just pretending to put in the effort in the relationship while they really weren’t. There’s a difference between letting go, and pretending you’ve forgotten. When you let go you are accepting that it happened, it was a lesson and now it’s time to be strong enough to move on, not rush into something but taking time to mourn the relationship and moving on. Pretending that you have forgotten will just mess you up, play with your mind and kill you internally. It will give you this sharp pain in your chest because you will try and get over the person quick, jump into many relationships that will not work out because they just don’t give you that special feeling that the previous person did. The toughest part of letting go is realizing that the other person already did. So you just stand there and watch them walk away from everything you had. But you still mean every word you said to them. They say that time heals all wounds but all it’s done so far is give me more time to think about how much I miss you.

You know as a person sometimes you must forget what you feel and remember what you deserve. No matter how much you love the person or how much you feel for them if they are not meeting you halfway and they are not treating you the way they should then you should just let them go and find another person that will. At some point of your life, you will become aware that some people can stay in your heart but not in your life.

Our story has three parts: a beginning, a middle, and an end. And although this is the way all stories unfold, I still can’t believe that ours didn’t go on forever. What did you mean when you said together forever? Guess it was just one of your lies. But then again one of the ugliest sights in the world is to see the one you love happy with someone else. You the other person doing more than you tried and like an arrow through your heart it just places a black hole and your heart bleeds. It hurts the worst when the person that made you feel special yesterday, makes you feel so unwanted today.

To be rejected by someone doesn’t mean you should also reject yourself or that you should think of yourself as a lesser person. It doesn’t mean that nobody will ever love you anymore. Remember that only ONE person has rejected you at the moment, and it only hurt so much because to you, that person’s opinion symbolized the opinion of the whole world, of God.

I don’t really understand why they call it heartbreak when it feels like every other part of my body is broken too. But then again you will never know true happiness until you have truly loved, and you will never understand what pain really is until you have lost it.

A life with love will have some thorns, but a life without love will have no roses.

My Name Is Chriztopher Raymond And This Is My Story.
Let The Words Spray!!


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